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Monday, July 25, 2011

Discussions of Quinne

The other day I was teaching Miranda about her full name and explaining to her why her middle name is Quinne. Now, she's been told about Quinne before but I believe this was the first time she really wanted to (or even could) understand what happened to her. She starting asking a whole bunch of questions about her sister. Where is she? How old is she? Why isn't she here? What happened to her? I didn't want to sugar coat anything so I told her everything in terms I thought she'd understand. We watched her video and then something happened...

Miranda started to cry.

I think she started to understand right then, right there. She had a sister and she died. I just held her close, hugged her tight, and told her it was okay to cry. It was okay to feel sad and to miss your sister. I explained that a lot of people miss her sister and a lot of tears have fallen for her. I tried to explain that Quinne was in her heart and that she always would be but that was a little to complicated for her. She kept telling me that her sister was in her 'room' (her curio cabinet where we keep her urn). I told her that yes, Quinne's ashes are in her cabinet, but her spirit is in your heart. And mine. And Adam's. And many, many more. 

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  1. That is lovely Anjie! My older son always gets upset and missing his brothers and sisters in Heaven when we talk about it. Big HUGS!

    Kris

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  2. How great that your child has such depth of feeling, painful as it is. Visiting from SITS; congrats on your day as featured blogger!

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    1. Thank you Louise! It was hard to watch her feel the pain of missing her sister, but I knew it was going to happen someday. I appreciate you stopping by!

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  3. Such a difficult conversation to have, but obviously so very important.

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    1. Yes, a very important conversation to have. Quinne's memory will live on in Miranda and Elliott so I have to teach them all about her.

      Thank you for stopping by Kimberly!

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  4. We just lost a tiny son in October. It was so hard to let the kids know- all were ready for that new member of the family. Love your blog and a new follower.

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    1. Oh panamamama, I am so deeply sorry to hear about your loss. I can relate to the hurt that you are feeling. Explaining everything to Miranda was pretty painful but it was nice to share her story again. Thanks for following and I appreciate the time you took to come visit me today!

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  5. How nice that you were able to share that with her. BTW, your daughter is absolutely beautiful. Stopping from SITS.

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    1. Thank you so much Joanne! I really appreciate you taking the time to visit me today!

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  6. A very close friend of mine lost her daughter as well.Her son is having a very hard time dealing with her passing. I'm so sorry for anyone that loses a child.

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    1. I'm so sorry to hear about your friend's Tara! Losing a child is an extremely difficult experience. Thank you for stopping by!

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  7. I'm so happy to have met you but so sorry for this. Your video is beautiful - I loved it. Your children are lucky.

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    1. Thank you Sheri. I watch Quinne's video frequently. It makes me feel better. I appreciate you stopping by!

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  8. What a difficult experience for a little one to understand. You are a sweet mommy.

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    1. Thank you! How very kind of you to say that. I'm so glad you stopped by!

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  9. So sorry for your loss. It's good that your children know you are open to discussing it with them and that their feelings of loss are normal and you will always be there to support them. Thank you for sharing.

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    1. Thank you Cheryl! I try very hard to let my kids know that it is always okay to talk to me about anything. I say it all the time, so I only hope it hits home to them when they're teenagers. I appreciate you stopping by!

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  10. This just breaks my heart! How great for Miranda to share her sister's name, to carry her with her.

    Looking forward to reading more!

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    1. Thank you! I knew without a doubt that her middle name would be Quinne. She will forever have a piece of her sister with her. I really appreciate you stopping by today!

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  11. I like the way you explained things to your daughter. We lost 2 babies back in '09 when my 2 oldest boys were 9 and 3, and one of the babies was far enough along to where my sons knew they had a brother on the way, had seen him on the ultrasound, and knew what they had lost when he died. I give you credit for doing such a great job of explaining- I'm pretty sure I sucked at how I handled things, lol.

    ~Amber "SortaSuperMom"
    www.confessionsfromboystown.com

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    1. Aw, Amber, I am positive you didn't 'suck' at how you handled it. I'm sure you did fine. I am so sorry to hear about your losses. My heart breaks for you. Thank you so much for visiting!

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  12. Awww... better that she come to terms with it now rather than living an illusion.

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    1. She's still only four, so I don't know how much she actually came to terms with it. I'm sure I will have to explain it again someday. I agree though. I don't sugar coat for my kids very often.

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