Deployment woes

It's really starting to hit me that we're really going to be doing our first deployment and I'm getting scared. I'm scared of being alone for 7 months. I'm scared of having to raise our daughter for 7 months without him. I'm worried I'm not strong enough, although I know in my heart I am. On Saturday I spent the whole day with my friend who is a newlywed and she acts like how I used to act with Adam. When did our goofy, disgusting newlywed syndrome go away? Why did it go away? I still love him with all my heart, but it has definitely changed. It's a much more mature kind of love. It's not the passionate, hormone-driven love that it was. She says they'll never change and I used to say that too. I used to tell everyone we'd act like newlyweds forever. I miss wanting to talk to him 20 times a day, but honestly, we've been together for so long it seems like we don't have anything to talk about anymore. At night when he calls me from Arizona we pretty much just say what we did all day and that we miss each other and that's it. There isn't anything else to say. Saturday was our 4 year dating anniversary. I can't believe that time has flown by so quickly. I don't really know what I'm complaining about, but I needed to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening. Leave me some love.