*TTC stands for Trying to Conceive
I never in my wildest dreams thought it would take me 5+ months to conceive my third child. My first two were conceived in the blink of an eye. With Quinne, I stopped taking my birth control pills and the next month I was pregnant. With Miranda, we weren't even supposed to be trying for another one for at least 6 months. She had other plans though. This time around things are going a little bit differently. When I got my IUD out in March, I thought that Adam and I would conceive right away. In fact, I expected it. I was shocked when March, April, May and June passed without a positive pregnancy test. Now we're on to July and my confidence in my body is fading. Adam has had to deal with my emotional journey of trying to deal with watching friends get pregnant right away or even when they weren't trying. I'm happy for them but every month that goes by just gets me a little more down. I know I shouldn't really be complaining but I was so excited to be pregnant again and hadn't prepared myself at all for the possibility that it might take a while. I can't seek fertility help unless it takes a year or longer but in all honesty I don't think I'll be interested unless it takes a really long time, like 2 or more years. I'm already freaking out about the fact that my kids will be 4+ years apart and everything that goes a long with that. I've heard it all from well-meaning friends and family but honestly there is nothing anyone can say to make me feel better. I know it's going to happen, I just hate not knowing when.
Biggest HUGS Anjie.... I too, know the heartbreak when TTC takes a lot longer then you ever thought it could.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was TTC my oldest daughter, it took 5+ months and I got pregnant after I decided that we weren't going to have another baby. Then BAM... next thing I knew, I was pregnant.
With my 3rd child, I was pregnant the month we decided we were going to TTC so with that, I figured that since we were TTC Katy, it wouldn't take long at all... we started TTC in February and I didn't get pregnant until July. Each month was hard and I was a basket case and in June, I had told DH that if we weren't pg by then that we were done TTC. Then it just happened the following month. Maybe because we were more relaxed and less on a *mission* so to speak. And hey, if I had gotten pregnant sooner, I wouldn't know all the wonderful ladies on our PJ board!!!!!
{{{HUGS}}}
Fingers crossed that July is your month - because we all know April babies are the best! :)
ReplyDeleteI SO get this. I'm on cycle day 2 and it has always been so easy in the past. It becomes all you can think about. I HATE it!
ReplyDeleteFirst off, I've been trying to relocate your blog for forever. I did some digging on my blog and it took me here so yay!! Secondly, I just want to say good luck with TTC. It didn't take us long to get pregnant with either one of them. Both times I had only been off the pill for like 2 months. But trust me, I am so scared with a second baby coming that I would liked to have waited longer. But you and Adam are in my prayers and I'm sending you BFP vibes!!!
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